Catholic Singles

SEEDS
BY: MARK ANTHONY ROSOLOWSKI


There is an old saying, "The darkest moments of one's life may carry the seeds of the brightest tomorrow." I have heard that numerous times in my life, but until very recently never paid much attention to it. That was because it either made no sense to me, or I had no use for it. Of course knowing me as I do, both reasons are probably the correct answer.

I will be the first to admit to the fact that I do not know how it feels to be in a failed marriage, or how it feels to be betrayed by the one that you have pledged your life to love. However, I have first hand knowledge of the pain that is felt when the one you love is no longer there and you are left with an empty place in your heart.

The darkest moment in my life came with the death of my wife, I felt like half of me had also died. I felt lonely, without, an empty vessel just going through the motions of living. I became depressed, moody and wanting just to sleep when I was not at work. I immersed myself in work, working 80+ hours a week, going in on weekends and holidays just so I did not have to be at home. I basically stopped eating, usually consuming just enough to keep me functioning. I no longer cared about my appearance; it was as if a new I had evolved from the experience.

As I sat in church on a Sunday, I saw a mention of CatholicSingles.com in the advertisements, I said to myself, I have to check that out, of course by the time I got home, it was forgotten, somewhere in the back of my mind. The next week the same thing occurred, and finally on the third week I did log into CatholicSingles.com and in this place I have found true friends.

We have sat in the chat room together, sharing our lives with one another, we have laughed together and we have cried together. At times we are like a true family where we have petty spats and squabbles, but a quick, I'm sorry and an explanation of what was said and all is cleared up.

Every one of us has faced a sorrow in our lives, either through just failed relationships, divorce or death. It is a common thread that had brought us all together and we are all looking for a success story we can tell.

Yes my darkest moment was the death of my wife, but through her death, the winds have brought me here to settle down as a seed in rich soil, to grow into a bright and beautiful future with friends and family and as I pray a person that God has chosen for me.