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LIFE'S SHORT, GO & HAVE FUN OUT
BY: MARK ANTHONY ROSOLOWSKI

When I was younger, I though that I would live forever, that I was invincible, that I would live forever and those around me would be here on earth with me. I really thought about death, really thought about an end, I made plans for an unknown future because it would always be there.

To get to these plans I worked long hard hours, not giving a lot of time for the fun that was there for me to enjoy. I did things with my family, but not as much as I could have done. I was immersed in work, I had to work to make sure that when it came time to enjoy life I would be ready for it.

I let my children's life slip past me, working rather then taking a day off to seed daughter receive her black belt. Working was more important then see son win his Little League Championship. I had to work rather than going to wife's work Christmas Party or even my job's Christmas Party. I had to work, I had to make money, not that I wanted to own a lot of things, but we would need it for the future.

Then the future stopped, it changed track, life was changed, suddenly my dreams were crushed, they were gone, my wife was gone. She became ill, that was not in our plans, we were suppose to grow old together, holding hands, hugging, kissing and loving each other till the end of time. We had never thought about illness coming into our lives, illness that would take her away from me. She was gone, our plans, our dreams and our future instantly vanished from sight.

I think back to all the good times we had, and I think of how much more we could have had if I only had thought the life is short and we needed to go out and have fun. The dress she wanted so bad I knew she could taste it, it would cut into our budget to deep, besides did she really need it, was it really important. I think back now and would it have hurt.

She wanted to put colorful trim around the bedroom walls; it was a waste of money. Money we needed to save for the future. Money we would be able to use what we got older and retired. We needed that money it would see us through our old age, so we would have no fears. Would it have broken us to do it, no it wouldn't but I had to think of the future.

We had great vacations, but always on a limited budget, I remember that souvenir you wanted from Lake George, but I talked you out of it, we didn’t need it. That was just a waste of money. It would have made you happy, it would have been fun just to have it, but it was impractical so it stayed in the little shop on the lake. It would have been fun.

After you were sick, I made more time for you, but it was way to late then. I tried to make more time for you and I did, but I still worked more then I had to, we started to go to dances, and have some fun. If I knew that the Columbus Day Ball would have been out last dance, I would have had the DJ play that song over and over till I could not stand. We had fun, but you were so weak by then. I had waited too long to have fun.

God took you home a short time later. After you were gone I again immersed myself in work, I was at work 60 to 70 hours a week. What was the sense of having fun, had to work, had to save money, and had to work. I had not learned yet, I knew I needed to have for my future, the future was important; nothing else mattered except for the future.

Then I got sick, I nearly died myself. God was giving me a message, a message I hold onto tightly today. A message we must all learn, “Life is short, go out and have fun.” I think back now and try to figure is it too late, or do I have plenty of time. I do not know, but I am going to enjoy life. I may get sick at times, but I will fight, I will get better and above all I will have fun, I will enjoy the life God has given me. I will continue to pray to God to allow me to love again, to find a lady to share the rest of my life with, to have fun with, the fun I have missed out on throughout my life.

I am happy that I did wake up and see what God was trying to tell me by giving me a perfect lady, two beautiful children. I saw He wanted me to have fun, enjoy life, but I gave it up for work. I promise I will never do that again for God gives me today, there is no guarantee for tomorrow. I will enjoy life, I will have fun, and I will see God in all I do. God is in the dance even if I cannot dance, God is in the song even if I cannot sing. But more importantly God is in all my friends, those I am suppose to have a good time with, those I am suppose to have fun with. God will be in that special lady He is leading me to, I promise to God and to that lady that I will enjoy life, I will live life to the fullest and most of all I will have fun.

As I pray each night I add on a little more:

God please take me to the lady that You have chosen for me. Lord I promise never to let a day pass that You have given me not to have fun and to enjoy the lady You have given me. I will remember to laugh, smile and love a little more everyday, for each and everyday that You have given me is a gift. God show her to me and let her see me as the one she is to have, so we can continue down life’s path together as one. Amen

Maybe if we all said that prayer, reminded ourselves we are to follow down God’s path, remember that we played as children and had fun because our parents wanted us to enjoy life. What else could God, who is our Father, want us to do then to enjoy life and have fun.

Thank you my friends for letting me have fun, but most of all God, Thank You, for the wonderful friends you have given to me to have fun with.