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HOW
BY: MARK ANTHONY ROSOLOWSKI


How do I show my feelings for you, when I am afraid to tell you I think you are the one? How can God show you to me, but not give me the courage to say what I feel? I wonder if you feel the same way that I do, or is it just one sided? Do I see more than what is really there or do you see it too? I am confused; it has been so long since I was afraid to speak of how I feel to a lady for the first time? What if you do not feel the same for me and reject me? What would I do, would I be able to accept it or would I never want to feel this again?

I want to shout out what I feel with never having met you; I want to holler across the miles, I think I love you. Right now I am half, I know you would make me whole, do you know it is you I am talking to? Do you want to do the same? I want the world to know that I want you to be mine. Do you realize this, or do you just see friendship and nothing deeper? How do I get the words out without sounding like a fool, like a stuttering teenager who is still slightly afraid of girls?

I want to hug you, to kiss you, to feel the delicate softness of your skin. Would you allow me to hold you as my own? Would you let me lay gentle kisses upon you face as lovers do? Would you allow my lips to feel the delicate skin on your face? Would you allow me to kiss your lips as we fall deeper into each others arms? Do you want to do the same back to me? How do I find out if you feel the same passion I feel for you? Are we ever going to be more than friends? Will we find love?

I need your love, do you need my love? Is God bringing us together to share His greatest gift? Am I reading something into this that was never there, that is not there, and that will never be there? If it is to be how do I know? Will God give me a sign? Will it be in a kiss as we meet? Will it be in a touch as we hold hands? Will it be in her whispering in my ear, when we meet than she knows it is her? Or will I have to take her by her hand and kiss her, and say those words I ach to say to a lady face to face?

I want to say I love you to her, I want to tell her she is mine till the end of time, but how do I do it? The One with all the answers is not responding to me? He is not telling me if this is right or if it is wrong. Why can't I get an answer to my questions? Is it that He just wants me to venture out, with His guiding hand, Him taking the lead, me following what He wants me to do? I am putting my life in His Hands; I am going to try this once again. Why am I so afraid to try when the first time it worked? Why do I shake when we talk?

I want you to be my lady. I want to share a dance of love with you. I want to be by your side from now till the day we die. Do I dare ask? Do I wait? Do I runaway and hide so as not to be hurt? Do I ask you to join me on a date by ourselves so we can be alone? I do not know what to do? If we feel the same how will we ever know? When we meet it might all flow out, will I sound like a fool? Will I sound sincere, will I be able to sputter out words to let you know I want to meet you alone. I will try, all I ask is that is you feel the same let me know by a gentle squeeze of the hand, a soft kiss, a shared secret smile so I know it is alright for me to have these feelings, because you have them as well.
I will wait for the day for us to meet and take the next step and pray that you are the one that God has picked for me.