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Dear God
By: Mark Anthony Rosolowski

Dear God,

Just wanted to write you a letter to discuss a few things with you that have been on my mind lately, you probably already know what I am going to say, but I still need to ask, I hope you understand.

God, I do not understand why people have to suffer. Why do the good people have to suffer so much. I look at the people I have loved who have been called home by You and I cannot understand the suffering that they went through before they are called by You.

My father was a good man, he did a lot for the church, which is to say he did a lot for You, yet, I remember painfully the night he went to the hospital for the last time, in extreme pain from his heart attack, he was in pain and there was no relief for him, I do not understand why, I know that You saw this and let him suffer, How can someone who believes in You, worships You and has done acts for You be made to suffer.

God, my brother was sick most of his life, he was living in pain, he was suffering, he knew he would never get better and he knew his life would be short. God I know he loved and adored You, yet, You let this happen, he died way too young you called him home, his suffering did end, but, he did not get to live a full life before he died, You saw him suffering and allowed this suffering, God I do not understand.

God, my Grandmother was a kind, sweet, loving woman, she was full of life and she did enjoy living, she was Gram to me, I loved her deeply, yet at the end she was suffering, she was in pain. God you saw how she worshipped You, how she loved You, but yet her last days were spent in pain and suffering, why God, didn't You care?

The love of my life, my wife, You brought us together, she was taken away, she was so young, so beautiful, so full of love, God, her eyes were always bright and shinning, her smile could light up a room and no matter how sick she was she never complained or showed anger, God she loved You, praised You and thanked You everyday of her life. Yet, . as she died she was in pain God, she hurt, she was suffering yet You let this happen, God didn't you care that your child was hurting, didn't You love her as much as she loved You?

God now I am watching my sister slowly die, her life fading away, I know she is in pain, she has lived most of her life in pain, but she has never stopped believing in You. I have seen the life you have given her, how the illness has ravaged her body, the pain she has to endure, watching her once strong body wasting away, why is this happening God, is it that You don't care, or is it that You do not see or hear her cries, or the cries of anyone who loves You.

God, I have suffered as I have lost each person I mentioned, they have all left my life emptier then it was with them here, when my wife was taken home, it felt as though my heart was torn in two, I felt as if I had died with her, nothing will ever be the same, yet, God, I did not stop loving You. I still run to you for comfort and caring and I find it in your arms, the suffering is outward and short lasting, the love I feel from you God is everlasting, the love is eternal, the peace I find comfort in You. Is it when I am suffering that You too are suffering as You reach down for me as I reach up for You. God I believe in You, I think I understand now.

The answer is something deeper, is it that through our suffering we can come closer to you, it is that through suffering we experience what You felt as they nailed Your Son to the cross for us, as He died to give us eternal life, is it that through suffering that we are born into eternal life.

God Your Will is hard, to understand, but You are in control, I have already given my life to You, to do as You have planned, but God right now I am tired, please pick me up and carry me, I am afraid God, I need to feel Your Love, I do not want to suffer alone, I want You with me and as long as I have You, my suffering will end when this mortal life is over and I walk by Your Side.

God please watch over all those that I love as I sleep, keep them all safe in the Palm of Your Hand, please do not make them suffer or feel pain .

God if it is in Your Divine plan to take my sister home, please let her be without pain and fear, lead her to Your Garden so she can rest and be at peace and touch Your Face and feel Your Love.

I am your child God.

God I love you.
Mark